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Traveling

Yet not sure where I am going

The fog and haze are settling in

I can feel the darkness surrounding me

Engulfing me

I am unsure of how to break free

Tears stain my cheeks as I push on

The feeling of defeat washes over me

If we never meet

What if we never meet?

Where will my soul end up traveling?

Will it continue to search over vast oceans,

or will it silently give up and fade away?

Will my mind and heart lose that drive,

or will it simply accept that is the path I am destine for?

What if we never meet?

Will I still be me?

view

New Paltz, NY

Sometimes it is not what is in front of you that is important

But what is in the background, that you do not pay attention to that really matters

Strong

New Paltz, NY

While hiking on Sunday I was flooded with the thought "I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong, I really want to be strong." This thought consumed me. I thought about how this is the moment in my life to make myself strong.

But what does strong mean? I thought back to manzanita, and how I learned that one word can mean something so different to someone else than what it means to me. Words hold their own meanings in all of our hearts based on where we are in life in that particular moment.

Currently strong means to me:

• the willingness to put myself out there, be bold and brave
• facing the challanges in front of me with grace
• feeling confidant and comfortable in my own skin
• fully embracing what I love and going for it
• physically feeling fit and healthy
• reaching out and asking for help when I need it

I want to feel strong and face this life head on.

escaped

Ramapo Reservation, NJ

Last night while lying in bed all sorts of incredible thoughts came to my mind

Beautiful words, one right after the other

I begged my mind to remember them

Hoping that when I woke up in the morning they would be there

Waiting patiently for me to write them down

It seems that words, thoughts, and ideas are not as patient as I had hoped

They escaped into the night

Running off leaving me to wonder if they will ever return again

Gratitude

Heart shaped surprise, New Paltz NY 

When the clocks change 

I change

The darkness nudges it's way into my mind

Pulling me down

Sucking the motivation out from inside me

And watches me struggle until the end of March

The winter is always a difficult time for me

I am going to try my hardest to be positive

and not let the darkness unveil it's evilness on my soul.  

I am going to seek out the beauty of what is around me

Taking note in what I am appreciative for

Pushing myself to smile more

And reaching out for a hug more often than I usually would

Today I am so grateful for:

* * No frost on my car this morning

* * The sun shining and the coldness staying away for the day

* * The thrill inside that arises when watching the NY Yankees

* * Lunch with a new friend

* * Finding something I have been looking for, for a long time

What are you grateful for today?  

beauty

Take it all in

Everything that surrounds you

Look around and see the beauty

Listen the little voices calling to you

Taste the goodness that comes

From following your heart  

arriving

New Paltz, NY

Around my heart a space is held

for all thing beautiful, brave and loving

This space is filled with magic

and a dancing sparkle

Lighting me up from the inside

and radiating beauty from my eyes

I never thought I would be in this space

Feel this full

Experience the comfort of my own skin

I have evolved into a beautiful woman

Strong, tender, and compassionate

Sharing the truth of my story with those around me

Brilliantly brave

Wisdom emulating out of me

live

Grounded, originally uploaded by Jennifer Belthoff.

live bodly, laugh loudly, love truly.
play as often as you can.
work as smart as you are able
share your heart as deeply as you can reach.
as you awaken
may your drams
greet you by name and
may you answer, "yes."
as you walk may all of your angels
gather at your shoulders and
may you confidently know
they stan with you.
as you rest
may all of your endeavors
know contentment and peace.

~ mary anne radmacher

a little space

I created a little space

Which celebrates pieces of me and gives me the moment to stop and reflect as well

A space to light candles for my dreams

And be inspired by how brave I am